New Earth Wisdom

So today my TEA isn’t accurate. It’s true.

It’s not that I didn’t brew it well, or drink enough, or really enjoy the cup. It’s the other TEA: time, energy and attention.

Right now I think I have a lot of TEA for some things and not for others. However, is my TEA accurate?

Time-yes, I have time until the kids come home. Do I need to rest? Yes, it feels like it, but I want to use the time differently.

Energy- oh, here it is. Energy is low when I thought it to be higher.

Attention- fully focused on any activity.

Well, crap. What do I do with that? Rest so that my energy is better while my time and attention are interested elsewhere? Why the great divide?

I was taught that TEA meant that you could calculate a percentage of how much TEA you had. Like, altogether I probably have about 40% TEA right now.

However, my time and attention are at 90% while energy is down to 10-20%. I feel divided.

I feel energy screaming for rest while attention and time want to be doing something different. So I wonder.. if we are made of energy, does that not speak first? Wouldn’t time and attention be things made of energy?

Okay energy, I will listen to you.

I believe that once I rest there will be alignment. Time and attention aren’t going anywhere, but I need my energy.

So I rest, I trust, I have faith, but I can’t lay down. I just, can’t.

I don’t even think I could lie down if several heavy and strong people made me. Resting to me right now feels like a cat in the bathtub.. not going to happen without a violent outburst.

Okay all parts of me, I have decided on a compromise. We will rest for a short while and then we will continue on. The time for rest can be sitting or lying. Let’s just make something shift energetically, and then we can try to move our energy to balance it out again.

I haven’t figured out how to keep my TEA brewing well, but I aim to study the leaves, learn the intoxicating smell, dance the art of brewing and find the balance. For experience is the only way in which we actually do the work of stumbling through the dark to find something that works. (And when that doesn’t work, we stumble again. And again. Yes, it is endless, but it is growth.)

Okay TEA: 3, 2, 1: meditate in silence and then find the balance!